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Post by Breezy on Jul 2, 2012 10:01:49 GMT -5
Crowflight didn't want to snap at her but he didnt need friends. No one could be trusted as they all either hated him or wanted him dead. He definitely did not just keep his feelings bottled up but who are you supposed to share your thoughts to when everyone despised you. It was clear she was only doing this out of pity. He didn't say anything but his tail slashing in the air showed his annoyance with her.
He was sick of cats like her thinking they knew everything about cats like him when they knew nothing. He was antisocial as he had always been even as a kit. And the part of distanting from the clan how could he be apart of the clan when everyone was against him. He let a growl jump out of his throat.
"Yea and you know all this because your not like the others and know everything. Do me a favor if you want to be helpful and leave me alone."
With that hiss he turned and stalked away. He was sick of cats thinking they understood him when they didn't. He didn't know where he was going but it was far away from Hollowwisp.
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 16:47:30 GMT -5
Hollowwisp was slightly hurt by Crowflight, but she made no move to follow him. She just opened her maw, and spoke before the tom was out of hearing range. "No, I actually know this because I use to be in your position. When we were apprentices. Remember?" She just turned back to the river, and watched the sun rise higher in the sky. It was true, when she was a apprentice, she became very antisocial, only talking to her mentor and her mother. She didn't think anyone had noticed, until the leader had talked to her, and made her see the medicine cat twice every half moon. And soon, she was back to herself. And since she was helped, Hollowwisp wanted to help other cats who were anti-social.
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Post by Breezy on Jul 5, 2012 19:41:02 GMT -5
OOC: Bah Crowflight is so mean :X
Crowflight ignored her words. So what she experienced a little of antisocialness but it was never like his no one had like him from jump. Everyone had liked his brother even as apprentices. If she wanted to remember so much maybe she should remember how everyone teased his and always ambushed him when he wasn't with his brother. What made it worse was she would always stand by not saying a word, at the time Crowpaw had a crush on Hallowpaw but she was to absorbed in his brother Eaglepaw at first to notice. That was of course before she became antisocial for whatever reason Crowflight still didn't know and didn't really want to find out.
When they had all became warrior his brother that he loved so dearly had purposed the idea of taking Hallowwisp as his mate. It struck a thorn in his heart but if his brother was happy he would be happy. Besides the fact he had many doubts the she-cat even noticed him. She was always with Eagletalon before he died. Which brought Crowflight to blame himself no one understood why but if you had been there you would. Crowflight could of saved him but he didn't or at least he didn't try that hard. It haunted him and if he could do anything he would trade his life for his brothers. Him living was practically a waste of time the only reason he lived was because his mother asked him to live for the both of them.
No one had been there when his brother died but him. So when he stated the flood took him which was true everyone except the leader and about two to three other cats accused him of killing his brother. She didnt understand anything and if she thought she did she was just like the rest of the cats; the only difference was she was trying to care for whatever reason he couldn't figure. He knew that the only reason he was mad at her at the moment was before he lusted for her still buy it seemed the only reason she was speaking to him was because of his brother's death and her wanting to reach out now he concluded. That made another cold knot in his heart unbearable to another cat but it just made him even more numb. He was a killer by default and not meaning to be but jealousy had gotten to him it seemed.
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 20:59:13 GMT -5
Hollowwisp didn't understand Crowflight at all. She was always kind to him when they were kits. She tried being his friend on multiple occasions, but his brother would always get in her way. She would try to go talk to Crowflight, but Eagletalon would always just randomly appear and start talking to her. And even after Eagletalons death, Hollowwisp tried being nice to the tom. But he stopped speaking to every cat. Even now, she tried to talk to him, and understand him, and he ignored her words. The truth was, Hollowwisp had been in love with Crowflight since they were kits. But he would either not talk to her, or Eagletalon would demand attention from her. And it bugged her, but she wasn't mean enough to just brush Eagletalon off. And the times Crowflight would get picked on, she tried to help by telling a warrior, but they would always say they were just playing. Hollowwisp knew better, but then, she was still not talking as much. Her father had just died. She was 10 moons. And she just quit talking to everyone but her mentor. The event had traumatized her, so like Crowflight, she just... detached. And no one was really there for her. But now, she was trying to be there for Crowflight, and he was pushing her away. And Hollowwisp was not going to let that happen.
The deputy chased after the tom, and jumped in front of him. Her fast legs taking over. When she faced the tom, she had a determined look in her eyes. "Your not talking anymore because of Eagletalon, are you? I know I already said this, but I know how you feel. When we were apprentices, I quit talking because my father died. And I felt like it was my fault because I couldn't get him to eat the catmint. And I blamed myself. Well Crowflight, Eagletalon's death was not your fault. You may think it was, but if you had tried any harder to help him, you would be dead to. And I know you think that would have been best, but Crowflight, it wouldn't be. Because you were meant to still be alive. You may not know it now, but Starclan has something planned for you. Maybe big, maybe small. But your meant to be here." She mewed urgently. Trying to get through to the tom, and then added in a whisper, "And i'm glad your still here." She sat down, and watched Crowflight for a reaction to her words. She hoped they had gotten through to him, but with how stubborn he was, she doubted it.
(OOC: He's not mean. He's just Crowflight. ^^)
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Post by Breezy on Jul 5, 2012 21:13:03 GMT -5
OOC: He is just Crowflight. Grumpy for no reason... He's so negative! XD but I love it
Crowflight's ears pinned to his head as he bit back snarl. This she-cat wouldn't seem to leave him alone and figured for whatever reason that sweet lies would get him to open up. He pushed past her not wanting to speak as knew whatever would come from his tongue now would be harsh words of a different side of him. He didn't want her to ever see tht side, he didn't want to hurt her like he was fully capable of but she was making it hard and it might end up being that way. He wasn't as innocent as she thought he was a killer and had done it more than once without a reason but she couldn't ever see the monster he truly was. The monster Graytail had seen with her own green orbs. The only reason the she-cat didn't speak on it was because she feared what would happen to which caused her to hate him greatly. He was a monster in way other couldn't understand it was as if he had the soul of evil Shadowclan.
But him and his brother both had secrets no one ever knew of. Ones that could get other cats dead in heart beats if they found out. That was why many cats had mysteriously died. Eagletalon would report if anyone might know and Crowflight would do the dirty work. They were a evil team hidden. One suspected while other never even consider it was dangerous but surpringly amazing at the brothers intelligence,
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 21:22:40 GMT -5
Hollowwisp sat down, a tear sliding down her fur as Crowflight walked away. A side of her knew nothing would work, but the other side of her wanted her words to work. They weren't a lie. Every word she said was the truth. And nothing was getting to the tom. Instead of following him, like she wanted, she decided to go for a walk, to clear her head. She wanted to keep working with the tom, but he would just end up hurting her. She was already hurt, from him just brushing past her, like she had lied to him, but she didn't want to get hurt anymore. She was deputy, she had to learn how to let these things go. Even if her heart said to keep pursuing the tom.
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Post by Breezy on Jul 5, 2012 21:42:48 GMT -5
Crowflight relaxed when he heard her paw steps lead away from him. Once out of certain ear shot he exhaled. He didn't dare look back over his boulder knowing if he did he might rush to find her and spill his well kept secrets. He didn't want her to know the real hi and because of this he could never love her like he had wished. His own amber orbs glared at his paws in anger. His brother had died and left him with burden. He had no one to talk to, or that he could talk to. Why couldn't he had of been the one to die instead of his brother everyone had already been suspious of him and his "good" brother dying didn't help. If Hallowwisp found out she would probably run away in fear and anger. He closed his eyes thinking back to when Eagletalon was around. The time when he was talking to Hallowisp he would see her laugh or smile with the others at his brothers jokes. It would bring a faint smile to his lips but also a stab in the heart. He wondered if Starclan was making this his punishment for the things he had done.
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 21:47:49 GMT -5
After patrolling the borders for hours, Hollowwisp decided she should go back to camp. Her clan mates were probably wondering where she was. So she turned back, and started trotting back to camp. She knew it hadn't been a good idea to patrol on her own, since she had no sense of smell, but it relaxed her. And she could still hear and see cats coming, so it wasn't a big deal.
She arrived back in camp, to find every cat asleep. It was after dark, so she expected that. She decided to relieve the cat on watch, and take over herself, since she still wasn't fully relaxed, and she sure wasn't ready to sleep. Her light green eyes trailed the camp, looking for danger, or someone to talk to, while her ears stayed perked, listening for intruders.
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Post by Breezy on Jul 5, 2012 22:26:01 GMT -5
Crowflight knew it was time to head to camp when the darkness covered everything that use to sparkle in light. He heaved to his paws not to excited at all but he trudged on anyway. He hoped Hallowwisp was already asleep deep inside the warriors den so the warriors in between would make a great distance between the two. Just the thought of not having to see those beautiful light green eyes stare into his in wonder made him relax. She always made him nervous whether or not she was talking to him he paused from the entrance when noticed that it happen to Hallowwisp on watch. He frowned but knew he would have to go into camp anyway. He stepped to a position to where she could see himashe approached. He passed her silently dipping head making his way to the warriors den.
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 22:36:53 GMT -5
Seeing Crowflight heading into camp made Hollowwisp cock her head. She thought he had already headed back to camp. When he walked by, she just dipped her head, and went back to watching the camp. XXX The next morning Hollowwisp's eyes fluttered open and she stood up, and headed out of the warriors den. Graytail had taken over watch at moon high, and Hollowwisp was grateful. She had started to fall asleep, but now, she was well rested. She stretched when she felt the warmth of greenleaf. She had let the events of yesterday leave her mind, and decided she would start fresh with Crowflight, even if it meant making him angry. She was going to open him up no matter what. Maybe even getting a few secrets out of him. She would tell her own, maybe he could tell his. |
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Post by Breezy on Jul 5, 2012 22:44:15 GMT -5
Crowflight had already left camp at sunrise to go hunt. He didn't want to bump into Hallowwisp so he was dodging her completely with the help of a few apprentices the main one being Wasppaw as he was nosy and love to give info. He had paid the small cat a fish before he disappeared of to the edge of the river where no one hardly came for main purposes such as that was where Eagletalon had died. He visited there from time to time but never on a regular it would only drive him mad. Often went there speaking his mind as that where his brother had truly died and felt it was the only way to come in contact with his soul. He muttered softly to himself aloud, it was half a whisper but could be picked up by ears if you were close enough. But by then it would be highly possible Crowflight knew you were their and that would mean trouble.
"Brother, you left me out here in the cold.... Help me."
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 22:55:37 GMT -5
Hollowwisp finished eating the fish she had grabbed, and trotted out of camp. She hadn't seen Crowflight, so he must already be at the river. She was trotting by the little path that lead to where Eagletalon had died, when she heard muttering. Her hearing and eye sight were really good, due to her sense of smell being gone, but even so, all she heard was a slight mutter. She couldn't make out any words, but she could definitely hear something. She perked her ears, and looked through the bushes, and spotted Crowflight. Hemust be visiting his brother. The she-cat thought, and decided to leave the tom alone. She pulled her head out of the bush, but not without leaving a tuft of hair. She continued to trot towards the river, and settled down to hunt.
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Post by Breezy on Jul 5, 2012 23:16:23 GMT -5
Crowflight's ears twitched at the sound of a cats paw steps fading and the scent of Hallowwisp. He let out an annoyed sigh, what did she want now? To tell him how he was a good cat? He just wanted to die everytime she spoke to him. It was like a claw in his mind and heart. He could never take her as a mate when her brother loved her. They had made a promise ans Crowflight was never the one to break a promise. His brother Eagletalon had but Crowflight was loyal and protective of his only known blood. He sighed, no one realized how much more of a monster his brother had been and they would never know as he would never tell ever. He was to loyal to his blood but his brother had not been unfortunately. Once the paw steps completely disappeared he head to the river figuring she had went back to find someone else or something at camp. But he was to caught up in his own head to realize he had stumbled upon her any how. He frowned realizing she knew he was there, and probably had heard him.
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Post by sundirra on Jul 5, 2012 23:28:42 GMT -5
Hollowwisp heard footsteps approached, she knew how heavy his foot steps were, so she knew who it was immediately. Crowflight. The she-cat grinned, and turned around. She watched Crowflight with amused eyes, let out a laugh. "Now, who's bothering who?" She laughed again, and killed the fish she had caught before she noticed Crowflight. "I didn't hear what you had said, if that's what your worried about. I just heard mumbling. When I saw it was you, I decided to leave you alone. I know how visit deceased loved ones is. I visit my dad all the time." She mumbled, trying to show she didn't find him weird for visiting his brother. "Oh, and I meant everything I said yesterday. I wan't lying." She mewed, her eyes soft as she licked the water of her paw.
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Post by Breezy on Jul 6, 2012 8:46:10 GMT -5
Crowflight wasn't certain of her, he just briefly nodded before heading farther down the river bank. He wanted some distance between her it was bad enough as it is he hurt her feelings. He didn't want to do that again, a frown was displayed on his face as he walked away. Something inside him told him to apologize while the other said don't it'll get you into a trap. It seemed the apologetic force was winning. He turned around watching her before his deep rough voice spoke to her. His eyes trailed the water as he spoke not wanting to look at her. Fear. That was it all, the fear of rejection locking him away. Fear had great power over individuals and it was proving correct with him.
"I apologize for yesterday if I hurt your feelings, it wasn't in my intentions it just happened."
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Post by sundirra on Jul 6, 2012 18:08:07 GMT -5
Hollowwisp grinned. Crowflight apologized? The she-cat padded after the tom, and caught up with him. "Thank you for apologizing. It means a lot. But I don't blame you. I shouldn't have been so pushy like I was being. I apologize for that." She mewed, her tone soft. She knew to be nicer, and more considerate of Crowflights feelings now. Being pushy was bad. Nice and considerate was good. "So... if you don't mind me asking, what were you telling your brother?" Hollowwisp mewed lightly. She was curious, but if the tom didn't want to answer her, she wouldn't ask again.
(OOC: Hollowwisp is taking the sweet and innocent pursuit now. Lol)
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Post by Breezy on Jul 6, 2012 18:32:31 GMT -5
[OOC: Lol Maybe It'll work ]
Crowflight let out a small sigh. He really had wanted to growl but knew it wpild only cause herr to get upset. He didn't really want to answer her but he also knew she was stubborn so she wouldn't give up. He didn't face her though he still didn't want to look her in the eyes not with all that guilt on his face at the moment. He decided not to lie to her he wasn't good at lying anyway. It always showed he was lying when he was nervous but that meant he would have to have a emotional pull towards the person. Otherwise it was all day smooth lies.
"I asked him to Help me..."
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Post by sundirra on Jul 6, 2012 18:45:56 GMT -5
Instead on continueing on to follow Crowflight, Hollowwisp sat down, her head still slightly cocked, and her eyes filled with curiosity. She resembled a kit right then, and at that moment, she felt like one. Like her father- Like she was being told a story that she didn't understand. Which, when she was a kit, was pretty often. She never paid attention to the warriors, so she never really understood a lot. Her attention was mainly on the medicine cat.
Hollowwisp cocked her head. Help him? With what? The deputy thought with confusion. "With what?" Her words echoed her thought, and real confusion lined her tone. She knew sometimes it was good to keep your mouth shut, but she was curious and confused, so nothing at the moment would keep her mouth shut. She didn't want to upset Crowflight again, but Hollowwisp didn't like feeling confused.
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Post by Breezy on Jul 6, 2012 18:59:29 GMT -5
Crowflight sat down when he was enough away from her. He needed the distance at the moment. He looked at his paws then finally his amber eyes met hers. He looked indifferent and emotionless. He didn't want to answer her knowing he'd have to explain himself and he would not betray his brother for a she-cat that didn't even like him the way he did her. But his brother would of betrayed him for Hallowwisp. Maybe that was why he watched his brother die emotionless at first. Or maybe he had become to pleasure the moment when cats died. He wasn't sure though and he wasn't going to try and find out not at the moment.
"With my Life, my past..."
Had his brother left him on purpose so he could suffer? Was this his repayment for watching his brother kill his father and not saying a word? If it was he'd rather Starclan had killed him instead. Would the next act be to watch Hallowwisp be the mate of another and have his kits? He bit back a snarl at that thought. He could endure much but not possibly that.
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Post by sundirra on Jul 7, 2012 21:23:13 GMT -5
Hollowwisp watched Crowflight, her head still cocked. She was even more confused now, but she bit her tongue to keep from question the tom more. No matter how curious she was, she didn't want to upset Crowflight farther. She just padded up to him, and curled her tail over his shoulders. "Hey, no need to get upset. I'm sorry I brought it up. I won't again, unless you want to talk about it." She mewed, trying to be comforting in some way. "You know i'm here if you need to talk. Right?" She added, her tone questioning. She really liked Crowflight, and she wanted to be sure that he knew she would always be there for him. Even if he needed to talk about something bad.
Hollowwisp knew how it felt to be alone when she needed someone to talk to. After her father died, she thought no one would be there for her. Until she started talking to the medicine cat. And then she knew at least one cat was there for her. It made her feel better. So, Hollowwisp thought that if Crowflight knew she was there, he would feel better. And quit blaming himself.
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